I Got Into Trouble
That gross feeling… where you feel like you did something “bad”.
I ruffled feathers.
It had to do with my content lately.
People are PISSED. I’ve been cursed at,
belittled, shamed, and cast away.
See, I can’t help it. I lean into my growth edges. I like looking at myself — into places I don’t really want to admit are there,
and then, after the shame has dissipated —
I share my discoveries in hopes that someone somewhere might find relatability…
And know they’re not alone.
Lately, my inner journey has had me looking deep at my sex and money shadows.
(I’m about to share some stuff that might offend you —
depending on your “sex” and “money” story)
I happen to be smack dab in the midst of a Family Court Dispute with my ex girlfriend.
As I write this from my Vancouver Condo, I’m in day 5 of a 10 day Family Trial in the BC Supreme Court.
I’m sincerely hoping that this will be the final finishing touches on my 5 year attempt to untangle from this Trauma Bond.
I didn’t know what a Trauma Bond was until I was in a relationship I was afraid to get out of.
But I did.
I had to figure out how I got there to claw my way out.
I got through, at the effect of slander, lies, and with my reputation seeming like it went through a meat grinder as a result.
That kind of pain — although uncomfortable, is designed to wake us up and evolve…
or we get to repeat the pattern.
Evolve — or Repeat. It’s our call.
In my evolution, I found some MASSIVE BLIND SPOTS when it came to me and relationships with sex and money.
Without understanding these blind spots,
I was easy prey where sex was the main tool that was used to go after money.
Like many Trauma bonds, our relationship wasn’t about Love.
We “THOUGHT” it was….
but as I see it now, I had NO IDEA what love was at the time.
Without understanding my conditioning about love…
I was using my money to try to get the sex that I wanted…
And go after more money.
All in a twisted dance with a former Sex Worker turned “Madam” who was in a similar transaction with me…
Using her Sexuality to get the relationship validation (oh and money too)….
This unconscious polarity resulting in a volatile,
highly sexually charged push-pull dynamic that had me eventually pleading guilty to assault —
and getting discharged last year.
It’s been a long, humbling, and painful road —
but one that I feel like I’ve won at —
because the MOST IMPORTANT THING for me when shit hit the fan was to figure out how the f*ck I got there — and how I can steer the ship moving forward to produce a different result —
one that has me in a healthy and secure relationship… having good sex and living from my gifts and in a space of
TRUE prosperity — where my wife and I do what we love…
Me, teaching what I am fascinated by… and my wife spending all the time in the world by my side — creating a secure and confident and self-aware little boy (and puppy.)
Good news… It’s possible.
It’s all about learning how to rewire the CONDITIONING that has us choosing partners from a wound — instead of from our hearts.
The conditioning that has us fearing that our sexual desires are shameful.
The conditioning that has us believing only ASSHOLES can be prosperous.
When you shift the pattern,
You become magnetic to a partner (because you’re magnetic with yourself)
Your sexual charge and life force energy returns and your creativity blooms (because you’re not shaming yourself)
You start making money (because you’re expanding your container for deserving and receiving).
The problem is —
As I keep sharing about it — it’s been triggering a LOT OF PEOPLE and they’ve been unsubscribing and
reporting me as spam saying things like “stop sending me s#x stuff!”
It seems I’m getting into “trouble” again with content that’s a bit too much for people to handle.
My email service was halted and penalized for all the complaints.
We’re back on now.
So I’ve decided I’m going to be moving this conversation into a private facebook group called
“Healing Love, Sex, and Money Conditioning” where I’ll be creating a 3 Part Course On…
Well…. How to shift those patterns to make massive changes to those outcomes.
This course will be sold for a $500 investment… but it will be FREE for those who show up live in this exclusive FB group.
Mark your Calendar right now:
1) Saturday February 18th: 5pm-7pm PST (that’s 8pm EST or Noon on Sunday the 19th in Sydney):
FROM PUSH+PULL TO CONNECTED: HOW TO CREATE ROMANTIC LOVE THAT FEELS SAFE (Even if you have Insecure Attachment Patterns)
2) Sunday February 19th: 5–7pm PST (8pm EST, noon Monday 20th in Sydney)
FROM ADDICTION+REPRESSION TO DIVINE UNION: HOW TO HAVE GOOD SEX IN A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WHERE TRUST IS PRESENT
3) Tuesday February 21st: 5–7pm PST (8pm EST, noon Wednesday the 22nd in Sydney)
FROM FINANCIAL DISORDER TO ALIGNED PROSPERITY: HOW TO BREAK FREE FROM THE CHASE TO TRUE MONEY FREEDOM
3–2hour Trainings. Lots of content daily and your questions answered… FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS.
There will also be free coaching sessions provided to those who attend and have questions live.
This course will be FREE to all who join the group.
It costs you NOTHING — except you MUST ANSWER TO THE 3 QUESTIONS PROVIDED AND AGREE TO THE RULES — which state you’re going to keep it mature and you can handle some spicy content without going ballistic….and you’re cool and can hang with this high level conversation — and you’ll take full responsibility for the Triggers that naturally show up in these conversations, and you’re all in for it.
And no, you WON’T get into trouble if you share and engage truthfully.
Take off the mask and let’s learn how to upgrade in the things that make life enjoyable — connection and abundance.
Jump in here and Watch the first 2 quick trainings on the 2 foundational principles of breaking Trauma Bonds:
The law of Polarity/Duality and the “4 Permissions”.
They’re short, quick — and they will reframe your reality in a DEEP WAY — in only the first 3 minutes — and we haven’t even gotten warmed up yet.
Are you in?
Jump in here
